When you clear out the past, it creates a certain vacuum inside, as we have forever held on to our pasts in a guarding manner. Suddenly, you have nothing to fall back upon. Your personal history has all of a sudden obliterated. Does that cause anxiety? Or the need to fill it up again with those memories? No, it creates uneasiness, but not anxiety or the need to fill it back again. However, it does create certain nothingness inside, a gaping hole, though in a comforting way. I don’t really know how to define this.
Reminds me of something that I read in Paulo Coelho's 'The Zahir'.
“How does one go about abandoning the story one was told?”
“By repeating it out loud in meticulous detail. And as we tell our story, we say goodbye to what we were and, as you’ll see if you try, we create space for a new, unknown world. We repeat the old story over and over until it is no longer important to us.”
“Is that all?”
“There is just one other thing: as those spaces grow, it is important to fill them up quickly, even if only provisionally, so as not to be left with a feeling of emptiness.”
“With different stories, with experiences we never dared to have or didn’t want to have. That is how we change. That is how love grows. And when love grows, we grow with it.”
“Does that mean we might lose things that are important?”
“Never, the important things always stay; what we lose are the things we thought were important but which are, in fact, useless, like the false power we use to control the energy of love.”
When you let go of your past, you create a space for something new to enter into your life. The vacuum inside needs to be filled up, the emotions may rush in, and that's where your wisdom comes into being. Choose what you want your life to be filled up with, and choose wisely, choose what would set you free, yet gives you reasons to stay. Make way for a better future...